I know really well that I haven't been here for a while and in all honesty it's more I cannot keep up with my life.
I've been told numerous times maybe you do too much or maybe it's time you drop something. In all honesty if there was a thing I would drop it would probably be school or like assessments or like idk a subject that gives out lots of those.
In some ways I feel like its as if you're always told to give up stuff. There's never a you can do it or a try to help yourself by doing this or that. I guess I will, say maybe arrogantly that I've matured enough to take everything in. Even when I seem to ignore it or brush things off. Take it in and really think about whether what people say is true. By that I don't mean like the random gossip everywhere type stuff but more like to grow you have to ___.
I don't actually know where I'm trying to go with this and it's all probably mumble jumble but the fact is I guess I'm totally not coping. To think before the holidays my floor was spotless and now it's just a mess and I haven't even emptied half the boxes from my room after we got new floor.
I honestly wish sometimes that my job wasn't school and that I didn't care about my work cos legit in at a stage now where I feel like its one thing after another like a million things at once. All this stuff you can't even do properly cos they're too close together. I really didn't think the jump from yr 9 to 10 would be this large but it is like an insane no work to a hand in one assessment get another three to do. Maybe I will have to drop something or rather but all I know is that for now as much as I hate it all I have is God cos honestly I feel pretty screwed
Xxx Jo
( I honestly don't get why people read this HAHAHAH)
