23/11/12 - World Possessions

I really have gone for ages and havent blogged for a while.

In the last few days many random stuff has happenned like i randomly got a tooth removed by an oral surgeon which still hurts and i dont know some deep thinking stuff.

Its nearly getting to that time of the  year where you go and reflect on the year. Think about all the things you did and didnt do. The time when I know i think about if i was to give a speech about this year it would sound like this. Some how its always during this time that I think about not only the past but also what i wanna do in the future.

(I dont plan what i say so it'll probs just come out randomly or weirdly) All my life Ive had the idea that God is in control and hes got it all figured. All this time Ive never doubted that or worried about it but as i face the decision of thinking about where to go for work experience next year (yeah plannin 1 year advance!! that is actually so much), i realise i have no idea. I dont know what I want to do and i dont know if thats a problem (but probs will be when i have to choose subjects...) only thing I know is that I really want my life to make a difference. I want to be someone who can live going I wasnt one of those people that spent my whole life getting rich and then just died. I guess Im realising theres more to life but in realising I really have no idea what to do. Something I'm really challenging to do is to go and think about what you want to do and really what you want to get out of life.

 Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6:19-21

19/11/12 - Realtiy

Ive really been quite absent recently. Let me just give you a recap of funny stuff this week and other random stuff.

Most notible thing this week is that I managed to reinjure my dodgy knee. Its probs from the very long squats I unfortunately had to do at training. Anyways I was told by  my coach the best way to sooth it is with a heat pack. Lets just say to make a heat pack hot you have to microwave it. Just cos its me and a microwave you can guess what happens. I misread the instrucitons and microwaved it for too long and YES it exploded. What can I say i should really stay away from microwaves but thats not really gonna happen.

Something else i dont know I just feel like i need to figure out from my head is my school fellowship group. I dont want to say we have no idea what to do or somethign like that but we've recently been finding that we have no idea where to take it and what to do with it. Im finally realising that once problems that you learn about in Pd that you thought would never be important or were just for a few selected people really do happen and really actually affect alot of people.  I would really love to just say pray and it'll all be figured or seek God and it'll all be good but its only now I finally release that stuff is actually so much more complicated. I never like not knowing what to do but this all is very much a reality check and I really am learning about the real world and how lucky i am to know that even on my bad days i have God and  I have someone to rely on. Ive learnt how lucky I am with my family situation and with my surroundings. If anything this has all made me alot mroe thankful. Although I have no idea how to help others, I just feel so blessed to know that God has a plan for me and he's got it all figured out.

xx Jo

12/11/12 - Reading for Yourself

I've recently come to a realisation that well basically when your relationship with God suffers your whole life also takes a toll.

To get back to where I was really requires working on my relationship and basically reading and praying more. So what I've decided to do in my free time (which there's lots of) is read through the four gospels cos well I've basically never read them legitly as a book but more of blobs of them.

It's been 2 days and I'm only up to Matthew 3 but it really is so amazing how Gods plan is perfect and there's just something about reading it for yourself that's really cool. I really encourage you to read it if you haven't before. Plus it's Christmas soon. Might as well read what legitly happens. :)

xxx Jo
Ps. It's a cool date

10/11/12 - Week Recap

I guess it's the early mornings which are quite draining for me at the moment meaning I try to go sleep early which sorta fails. Anyways I've had a hectic week where I finally managed to shorten a dress.
I'm the biggest noob when it comes to textiles type stuff. Like I legit cannot use a sewing machine or figure how to line up stuff but this week (while I was meant to be cleaning) I decided to reattempt. No idea how it is cos i haven seen it since yesterday but let's just say hemming dresses is actually so tiring. There goes being a tailor or whatever you call clothes making people.
I did end up cleaning my room and I've decided I'm gonna try and read. Got a few good Christian books but I hate reading so we shall see how that goes.
On a completely different note I don't rememeber if I talked about how there is gonna be a Christmas thing at my church and they're creating a committee blah blah and Im lets just stubborn and refusing to be a part and stuff. Don't worry about the details. Point is that well I always give stuff to God and often I hate the result. I always pray that he does whatever he wants but I always have a secret hope and my hope was that I would be really against it and still not want to go and stuff but annoyingly I've come to accept that I won't be doing anything and that well I'm free so I have no excuse to not. Idk if I'm making sense. I'm so hungry!! I realized recently cereal doesn't make you full. I'm done now.

Xxxx Jo

02/11/12 - Back On the Road

Its's been a while since I've blogged and its mainly because of the mass amounts of assessments recently and my really really busy schedules.

Anyways I had this elaborate story that I was gonna say about how recently during my assessment period I've been getting distant from God and what not but I guess today as this period ends my focus has really changed to how I can get back to what I was originally.

Today one of the highlights of my day has been meeting up for my grades fellowship group. I think what made this week extra good was how there was nothing we had to do. No specific topics. No plan to follow but somehow it just worked and there was discussion. I guess I am a control freak and I feel like often I have to just have everything planned out. I have this thing where everyday before I wake up I take like a minute to plan out everything Im gonna do that day and basically just go through exactly what I have to do as soon as i wake up so it really has been really amazing to see how you can not plan something but it can still go pretty well.

Something else I've been really trying to do this year is to pray to God whenever I think of something. Just to pray as the first thing I do whether somethings good or bad cos it really does remind you about God and its also a great way to help remind you to put God first and that he's in control. So for our fellowship group we have a Yellow Car challenge where basically instead of spotto you spot yellow cars and then you pray for something your thankful for and this really has helped me even in this day to remind me about being thankful.

On another completely random note as assessments finish I have this sudden urge to idk be come more social hahaha. So anyways today i started a twitter (jo_ngg) and a new tumblr (http://somethingcoolsounding.tumblr.com/) yeah dont ask about that im so not the creative type. Wow im so sleepy now. Anyways good to back on the road and back trying to rebuild my relationship with God.

xxxx Jo